Reading a book is stimulating and it has things like structure and grammar etc. However a book seems like a comfort.
A book is something that has an ending, a preconceived idea. It has a direction and follows it, or intentionally breaks it for drama comedy or action.
A book caters to the idea of needing that closure or that happy ending regardless of happy or sad that say a movie does.
But a txt message or an email or a conversation… Those are the tough ones. They may not have the best grammar, or even a complete though, but looking and reading them and actually hearing them determine the next chapter.
Every phrase I say fits into this story I conceptualize when I wake up, when I sleep at night, etc.
Why is it so hard to see bigger than the sentence or lines or script I have made for myself day by day.
I just want you(meaning anyone) to read past the lines, I am not a dead poet but dammit a little analysis never hurt.
You can say write or act out a million things in a day, and it can all happen at once, analysis, your heart, feelings, future conversations, past thoughts. Please don’t try to read me like a book.
I will not fall into your structure nor will I fight against it for no reason. I will loose sight of things like anyone and humble when wrong. I can feel more from seeing your face or hearing your voice or reading a letter you wrote between lunches.
And that is just it, I will and want that feel.
My process to feel may be a bit different but it isn’t closed to the affects.
Multi task me.